“Adulting”

I HAVE NEWS!

I’m moving out. Finally. After literally what has seemed like I’ve reached the end of the entire universe, I, Karlee Ana Ownbey, have finally started to transition into adulthood. Am I excited? Yes. Is it slightly terrifying? Maybe. Am I going to crash and burn? Honestly, probably.

Ahhh, “Adulting” what a word. I know I’m still young… But the other day I was telling someone a story and used the phrase “my old friend from highschool” and I instantly aged about 12 years. I’ll be honest, I don’t really know how… But I literally 100% convinced myself I would never grow up. I would never “adult”. Now I’m packing up my things, selling most of my clothes, and trying to calculate if I can fit the luxury of avocados into my new lifestyle. I’m even debating on if I should go vegan? Maybe it’ll cost less because there are so many foods I wont be able to buy for myself, hence, saving money. Is this my mid life crisis? I’m not doubting it.

When I was little and stupid(er), I had a plan. I was going to run away. I was gonna hop in my car and visit all of the national parks. Be a waitress in a million small diners, keep changing my name, maybe get a dog. Be on my own, and hopefully find a way to go so far off the grid that I wouldn’t have to pay taxes. Or something like that. But, life came at me way too fast, I got too caught up, I blinked, and next thing you know, I’m here. Stuck.

I’m trying to contain the scariness of it all in the back of my head so I don’t have a full-on panic attack. But it’s buzzing constantly. Like a text you know you can’t open cause it might hurt a little too much to read. My mom keeps making sure I know what I’m doing. Obviously I don’t. But I don’t think she really does either. But to be fair, I don’t think anyone knows what exactly the hell is going on like, ever. I keep thinking about how I’m going to need to buy toilet paper and shampoo. Do I sell a kidney? Are those worth a lot?

Anyways, It’s Sunday. I’m moving out next Friday. Scary but mandatory. Wish me luck, my friends. If anyone has any advice on how to save money and not want to jump off a cliff, let me know. THANKS!